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[Bella]

Spent the first half of the day incapacitated by sadness over the prospect of my SO getting a job this winter and me not being able to see them for over a year (because it's inaccessible by rail or airline! Yay!), and then the second half incapacitated with fear because I can't get a hold of them, not online, phone is off, haven't heard from them since last night, don't know if they're dead or not.

I guess today wasn't meant to be a not alternating between wanting to cry and being sick to my stomach with worry sort of day.

[Chocofreak13]

pretty sure he posted on FB either earlier today or late yesterday, so that's a good sign. :0

[Nichi]

I was having a good day...and then I came home to find the parents got the truck dad was talking about; when I thought I had one more week to go before they do. Now, I'm gathering the info I need on the area, and am trying to think of how to confront the parents about my plans to move; mom's counting on me buying the Avenger so she can pay off the Mini faster, and at my current salary, I'd be stuck here until 2017 unless I take a job in Tyler and commute every single day.

Maybe if I'm lucky, they'll let me pay on the car after I move (I can PayPal the money to dad), and then once I pay it off, I can take some time off work to fly back down, get it and the rest of my stuff, and drive back up. I seriously doubt they'll let me take it without paying it off.

[alfonso_rd_30]

I was having a good day...and then I came home to find the parents got the truck dad was talking about; when I thought I had one more week to go before they do. Now, I'm gathering the info I need on the area, and am trying to think of how to confront the parents about my plans to move; mom's counting on me buying the Avenger so she can pay off the Mini faster, and at my current salary, I'd be stuck here until 2017 unless I take a job in Tyler and commute every single day.

Maybe if I'm lucky, they'll let me pay on the car after I move (I can PayPal the money to dad), and then once I pay it off, I can take some time off work to fly back down, get it and the rest of my stuff, and drive back up. I seriously doubt they'll let me take it without paying it off.

be grateful you got to use the vehicles...

[Nichi]

True; at least they aren't stupid enough to tell me I can't drive the Avenger until I pay for it in full, and then sell the van out from underneath me >>;

[Bella]

I finally got a hold of him, I guess there were internet problems at his house or something. ;^;

I still feel really shitty though and it's driving me nuts, I don't know what to do. It's hard to put into words, even, I'm just so depressed that everyone is doing stuff with their lives, spending time with their boyfriends/girlfriends, making plans for the future, and here I am wondering if my pain will be enough motivation to keep me going through the next n (let's be realistic, nobody knows how long it will take) years of school at a college chosen purely out of convenience and hoping my sadness doesn't completely burn me out in the process, aiming for a career in I-don't-know-what-but-I-hope-it-brings-me-some-happiness-and-enough-money-to-live-with-my-SO-because-I-don't-know-how-I-can-otherwise.

I've always believed in the power of my determination and luck to accomplish anything, but I don't know if it will help me this time and the sense of helplessness is killing me. ><

[Nichi]

@Bella: *hug*
If it makes you feel better, I have to get my shit together and try to confront the parents about my plans to move ASAP, lest I get locked here an additional 2 years

[Chocofreak13]

there's a lot of problems here that i can't fix and can't really comment on anymore since everything's been said and even though we face our own set of issues, i would imagine they're slightly lower on the pain scale than you guys. so instead i'm going to just say nothing more than this.


the supermarket tried to sell me rotten juice the other day.

[Nichi]

That sucks :[

So, the van is gone now. Dad sold it in less than 3 hours after posting it on Craigslist -w-;
The Avenger is now considered mine...although I do still have to pay for it. I just need to get things in order so I can tell dad about my plans to move, and see if we can arrange something so I can still buy the car and then come get it once I settle in.

[alfonso_rd_30]

I still feel really shitty though and it's driving me nuts, I don't know what to do. It's hard to put into words, even, I'm just so depressed that everyone is doing stuff with their lives, spending time with their boyfriends/girlfriends, making plans for the future, and here I am wondering if my pain will be enough motivation to keep me going through the next n (let's be realistic, nobody knows how long it will take) years of school at a college chosen purely out of convenience and hoping my sadness doesn't completely burn me out in the process, aiming for a career in I-don't-know-what-but-I-hope-it-brings-me-some-happiness-and-enough-money-to-live-with-my-SO-because-I-don't-know-how-I-can-otherwise.

I've always believed in the power of my determination and luck to accomplish anything, but I don't know if it will help me this time and the sense of helplessness is killing me. ><

welcome to my world since I left Junior High... Bells... I'm stuck in limbo working on small scale software when I so crave to get those damn kids off their CoD stupor with great fighting games, not just SF IV copy pastes like nowadays...

[Nichi]

^That reminds me, I really should track down another copy of Super Street Fighter II. Loved that game -w-

[Chocofreak13]

i hope i can maintain a good 8 hours a week at the library, since that means i can get back on food stamps. :0

[alfonso_rd_30]

i hope i can maintain a good 8 hours a week at the library, since that means i can get back on food stamps. :0

ouch

[Chocofreak13]

it's not that bad. it'll be worse if i can't get that. if not, i'm gonna have to wait to reapply till i do, or can score another library job (about 3 months out minimum on that one). :\

[Cockleshell]

kari you better do something cool for your 30k post jesus christ